[B.E.A.U.T.Y.] OF LIFE

5 things you NEVER want to hear AFTER your crush tells you he likes you.

Time:12.17a.m

Feeling:Sigh

Thinking of:Letting go

Listening to:’ROMPE’

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Just keep it short here.I am in the process of letting go of someone.It such a struggle.You know when other ppl are facing it,it is easy for you to be there to comfort them,but when you’re facing it yourself..it really sucks.And being a Christian,I should not worry..I keep looking ahead..but right now…stuck in the siatuation..so it’s sucky..

God knows the best.But as humans,we follow our feelings…

Anyway,I wanna share 5 things you NEVER want to hear AFTER your crush tells you he likes you..and you do the same.

5.So like since we r together..what is yours is mine..so can you borrow me RM500?

4.By the way I got something to ask you to do..please tell your sister it’s over between me and her.

3.Yes it’s true..they used to call me Mary…

2.Wait I need to make a phone call.(on the phone)Guy:yes mum, she likes me 2!

1.You just been punk’d!

Someday we’ll know why I wasn’t meant for you..

Time for love to go.

Time:8.09p.m

Feeling:Sleepy..

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Ahh!Emily like came back yesterday.I was just missing her and then she msged me:

[Emily]"I am gonna come down Pg.Wanna meet up?"

So anyway,went to get Cheri at about 11p.m..then head off to Gurney hotel.

Gurney Hotel has a comforting ambiences.It’s cozy,warm dim lights and basically it’s rated 4/5 stars.

We arrived earlier than her.So just sat with her and talk about her work and my crush.I realised it is time for me to let go and just focus on GOD.It’s really difficult for me as I fall easily and let go with a heavy heart.

Within 5 mins,Emily stormed in angrily,with her cousin next to her.

Zurene:Hey,how you gal?we’ve been waiting for you.

[Emily]:Wait..do you know what happened?I booked G hotel and my sis is like blabla(continue complaining about her sis).Her sis too..stormed in and yelled at her..and next thing they were arguing at the lobby.

Managed to catch-up with her when her sis was registering rooms.Emily came down with a group of her uncles..most from China and are highly educated,speaks pure Mandarin and dress classyly.

After the whole hoo-haa…we went upstairs to check out the room.It’s located at 13th floor.(some ppl pantang)Then we decided to stay overnight with Emily.We went to the room.

Gurney hotel has the same standardise room as most hotel.They have a king size bed..erm a study table with lamp..a nice,comfy sofa..but 1 thing I like is the bathroom.It has shower and bath tub.Most hotel either have only 1 of those.

First thing we did was jumped on the bed..wow..it was soft as cotton/silk(mattress)..I can’t think of a better simile to describe it…but for Cheri I bet she was sleeping off coz she just finished her work.

Emily took a bath…then we went to eat supper.I think I am spoilt*…imagined we ate 4 pieces of sandwiches with fries,coleslaw,1 ice lemon tea and 2 choc milkshake ..total up to about RM50.I don’t even know why we are dining like that as there are nice food at Gurney tower..(kapitan,Subway,etcetc)

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Later on,due to some problems we moved to a bigger room and cancelled the room b4 that.

I love the whole room.It has 2 bathrooms,2 rooms(1 master bedroom) ,living room and the basic facilities.What I like most was the bathroom!!!

The bathroom is separated into carpet and non-carpet.Carpet is where you have the mirror,sink and where you do your hygiene while the non-carpeting you have the toilet bowl,bathtub and shower again..and best of all "SEAVIEW"…It’s cool coz it’s like 1 whole window glass where you see the ocean view while you’re in your bathtub(I seen it once in "MTV CRIBS").

Funniest thing that happened that night was when we called the operator..Emily persuaded me to get curtains for the bathtub!Haha..let me explained..it was dark so we couldn’t really estimate how high we are above ground and thought people would see us in the bathroom.Here’s how the conver went..

Zurene:Can you like ask Maintainece to come up and install some curtains for the bath tub?

Oper:Huh?What room are you in?

Then Emily took the phone..where she made more complaints.

Emily:And can you please ask housekeeping to come clean the room ?And the lights is not functioning..please ask the Maintainence..

Oper:Sure Ma’aam.

Emily:I am not Ma’am.I am Miss!

Oper:(Shocked and frightened by now)..Oh sorry Miss..

These are the antics of my loveable friend Emily..I just love her..

Well today,we had a whole day of hanging out.Basically we went to papa’s pizza to eat again.(I am like a regular there already)

Then,we took a bus to Butterfly farm!I am lazy to write our whole adventure already..but it involves snakes and others stuff..

Zurene

Let go,Let God

Just ‘try it?’…Just ‘do it’..

Time:10.57a.m

Feeling:Confused

Thoughts for today:What doesn’t kill you,makes you stronger

Listening to:Basketcase..Greenday..(old time fav)

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TIME FLYS

2 days back(fri)…Too many things have been happening..esp farewells…got to say bye to my U.S friends..now my Perlis friend..*sigh*..gotta move on..

It’s Emily’s farewell…an ex-colleague who I have known this year..I think she’s 1 of the most straight-forward girls I ever met..and also most agressive.LOL.

Me,Cheri and Emily met at the Korean Kim Chi restaurant at 12.30p.m.I was there first.It was a really hot day..put on my sunnies and walk-in.Was suprised to see that I was the only chinese there,the rest of them are Koreans.

I ordered some Korean fried rice..which wasn’t that bad except it was covered 70% with oil…*gosh*…

Emily likes her food.She loves the kim chi.I personally tastes Kim Chi twice,and hated it.

Oh yes..for the desert we got served some wine..haha..in the typical ‘chinese cup’…It tasted sweet and spicy..what a combination right?

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Moving on to Papa’s Pizza..

Cheri :I am still hungry.The mee(she order Korean mee) tastes like Mee Sua.

So we ate again!Well,it’s Emily farewell.We gotta fatten her up with penang food before she leaves except this are more International food.haha..

We had some walfare and the breadstick.(Note:Papa’s pizza has the best breadsticks)

Got a called from Veen Win,who’s back in penang.My heart jump with a heap of joy..as I am glad she’s back but mostly b’coz she’s not leaving…

Told her to meet me at Paradise at 3p.m.

We met and chatted .

This are the things I’ll do before I turn 40..

I share with her stories on

1.how I crashed a wedding..

2.how I ate MCD in sunrise roundabout and not to mention

3.how I push her to skipped a movie to watch another movie which we din pay for that night itself…LOL..

MORE TO COME.

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Went Gurney later..I shall not write about our shopping spree..coz it’s more of action then writting..LOL..basically I brought a pink sunnies and a black top..

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Met tons of people in Gurney..old church friend..old collegemates(and also my bestie in college wif her bf)…friend’s dad…tons tons of people…

After movie..I was dead exhausted…

End

Zurene

P.S:Do you know confusion doesn’t come from God?That’s how I feel right now.Technically,I don’t feel confused..I am just reluctant to obey some things…

Time:12.30a.m

Feeling:Happy

Thoughts for today:Take a little step of faith and doors will be open  for you.

Defination of YM:Youth With a Mission is an organisation that consist of youth(and few adults) who’s on a mission of sharing Christ…

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The thought for today was shared with me by Sophie..one of the Americans girls from Youth With A Mission.Here’s how the conversation go..

(we were on the way back to their house,and I was directing the stupid taxi man to their house)

Me:So turn right..straight..kanan la…

Sophie:"The other day my friend who saw you said that if you were to take a lil step of faith,doors will be open to you anywhere you go"

Me:Pusing kanan…

Sophie:Now I understand what she meant ..

Me:What?You refering to me?What again?Sorry I didn’t hear you..(I am directing this stupid man..of course I din say it out loud..haha)

Sophie:Nvm,I will tell u when we get off the cab.

Me:Alright…

So thanks to Mr.Stupid taxi man who charge RM10 for a 5 mins drive ,I missed the word from God…ahhh..curse the stupid taxi man..forgive me Lord..:P

Anyway,my day started off with my godsis waking me up to follow her to INTI college as they were having an education fair.

The next thing I knew,I was getting up early 11a.m(yes it’s early for me..mind you)..:)

I fin getting ready by 12..as I was afraid that my other friends want to have a lunch appointment with me…So ,I like calculated that I should leave latets by 12.30p.m

Next..me n SS(godsis) was on our way to INTI…as we step into the college..every1 was staring..and the lady who’s one of the admin commented that we don’t look like the students there(wah…can c 1 r?)…

Later,we went to get info on the subjects/courses we were involve wif.Most of the time,SS was the one asking ques..coz I was just accompanying her.

When I got back it was already 3p.m

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Went to "China house".The Youth With A Mission has 3 main houses..which is China,Bangladesh and also Malaysia.I think these people are God’s greatest blessing.Infact anyone with a heart and passion for God are God’s greatest blessing to us people…coz they will know the genuine love to show to people..and many people need love..and I don’t mean like saying"I love you" kinda love..but genuine love.

I brought them to Paradise Hotel…which of coz I introduce them to my friends there.I brought them to the hotel and then to the bar(food bar that is)Jo was really excited and she really loves :

the enviroment..

there was a little cute fountain…

a couple enjoying swimming..(they just look adorable)

hot weather(I dislike it but they like it)

n we were drinking choc smoothies with cherry..

Sophie mentioned that the songs played in the bar reminds her of New York.(it was a bit of jazz and Michael Buble).Basically we had an interesting conversation from singging…to their hometown..to the lakes..to questions like"where would you like to go if come to U.S"? and of coz about politics!(yes we talk about politics too)

Later on it was 6…we had to rush back. wanted to pray for them..but no time..so here goes..I pray for a safe journey for you guys and May God always put both of you under his wings’always and forever’.:)

Great day…end

Zurene

Time:4.23p.m

Feeling:Sleeping

Thoughts for today:Reach for the moon,if u fail you will still land on the stars.

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Got a msg from Alexis.She was at the gym..decided to go there to catch-up with her and also mainly to get a gift for my mum.As usual had an interesting conversation with her.Also found out they were selling protein bars,and other liquid forms of energy bars and all those.I didn’t really bother to look at them although the packaging looks proper and tempting.

Anyway,met another friend of mine in the gym too.Haven’t seen her for a long time.According to her,she and a few other girls had a dance performance 30 mins b4 I arrived.Due to the fact that my physical energy was way lowww(some reasons la),I didn’t have much time/energy to talk to any1..so I rush down to get my mum Mother’sa day gift.

Look through some of the sunnies(sun glasses) in island.Apparently,the a few ones they were sellin were from Vinci.And they actually had the nerve to increase an extra RM9.90 for the same quality sunnies(noted:vincci glasses usually cost only RM20)…my boss said went he was at thailand..he got Vinci sunnies for only Rm3 per pair.In other ways,its dirt cheap la..

Enough about vanity.Later on,had church.Always have a great time in church.As we girls plan to wear white,80% of us were in white.I actually bought 2 pairs of tops(1 white) just for this occasion.

Oh yeah,we had newcomers from Youth With a Mission there too last night.10 whites who came and visit our church.They seem like very nice people.I could see they enjoyed the praise and worship we have.I think I totally gave all my energy out last night while praising God,jumping up and down.

I kinda feel unappreciated right now…hmm..

Zurene

                   Time:11.59p.m

                Feeling:Shock

Thoughts for today:When you’re lost look to God..God is like a  compass…He gives you the RIGHT direction.So look to our ALMIGHTY Compass.

          Listening to:Take it all

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Woke up late…as I watch The Reaping the night before.It’s an interesting movie..the type of movie where you have to watch twice to understand the meaning behind it.

Later on,went to gym.Usually I will bring my headphones along,but I forgot.So I end-up watching my fav videos in mute(and why do MTV  have to play my fav videos when i forget my headphone!)…first came Hillary Duff"With Love",then it was Fergie"Glamarous"..then of coz my darlin Avril’s video(I am a BIg fan of Avril Lavigne)!!!Arrgh…

Anyway,you just have to have your headphones when you workout alone,or not it will be dead bored..(my gymmates will agree with me on this right?)

In the evening…I was to have dinner with one of my ex-colleague.Went to Papa’s pizza.Ordered my fav garlic bread..Papa’s pizza has one of the best garlic bread..

Cut that.More importantly I found out 3 things that I needed to know today.

1.God created imperfect beings.We can strive to be perfect,but we will never be.Instead,He turns our weakness into strength.

2.Found out that a close friend of mine has been taking drugs..(sigh)..and another friend of mine been selling herself cheap..I don’t know how to put it.Weird thing is I was watching Oprah Winfrey in the afternoon and it was about teenagers who are addicted to "Meth/Crystal Meth" and how they struggle with it with the support of family and friends.These two girls who were being interviewed by Oprah looks like they got everything put together but truth behind the doors ,they are falling apart..broken inside…that’s why they turn to drugs.There’s also about this gay guy who have sex with 25 other men on 1 night due to drug intake.Eww..

3.God forgives and give second chances & maybe more.You jus gotta have true repentance.

I am not very judgemental when it comes to friends or people in general.I really belief everyone deserve a second chance.Friendship is important and so is other kind of r’ships.People makes mistake.Forgive them.Keep a grudge,and you have more wrinkles.Judge them,and you will be judge.I can only be a tissue provider to you…a shoulder to lean on,lend you a hand,or borrow you my ears…Heck,I am not perfect myself..I just rely on God everyday…

A new day for me tomorrow…

Zurene

Time12.22a.m

Feeling:confused

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I just got back from Paradise Hotel,went to catch-up with some friends.As usual,it was a tiring day for me…??

This comes as no suprise as I couldn’t sleep last time.I assumed I woke up at 4a.m,wondering bout the ‘healing seminar’ n all.Therefore,I woke up and pray…realised I had bitterness in me..but more astounding was the fact that I started getting thoughts of praying for my family and friends.

God,what’s your will for me?I am so confused right now.

Okay,enough about that.Went for dinner with uncle and family.Yes my fav uncle,Uncle Ninian.Went makan dim sum….stupid lady who was pushing the ‘dim sum cart’ have no idea what is ‘muffin’,and I asked her twice for it.At the end,I have to go point it to her.Anyway,I forgive her…haha..It’s good they are becoming more westernise now..I mean the Dim Sum..love western in general.

Zurene

Let your will,be my will

Time:9.43p.m

Feeling:Great

Listening to:Becaused You Loved Me(Celine Dion)

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Went to a healing seminar today.It really opened my eyes about how the root cause of disease is actually not only biologically inheritted,not caused by enviromental elements or viruses attacks.The real cause was sin.Another thing I learnt was NOT ALL DISEASES can be prayed for and heal.

From my personal point of view,I really belief in God’s divine powers and thank God had sent me to this seminar.I was really bless to be given the opportunity to meet this 2 great pastors.Throughout the whole lunch with them,I was reminded by one of them that God loves me.Suprising,many of us have salvation..but we tend to forget!For example,I did…

"Don’t care about what others think of you".Listen to God.

Pastor Henry told me this…These words renew my life.Free me from the chains that have kept me captive.Now,I think of his words..I heard the song "All Day"(Hillsong United),playing in the background.Yes its very simple words…but can it be done?We are living in a culture where the mass media urge you to act like some1 else..n changed/transform you to this unrealistic image.Open a magazine..u see stick models..switch on the television..you see the rich and famous living the so-called perfect life.The conclusion I got was "be yourself".

I wonder when I will have faith as high as mountains..hmm…I don’t know..

Zurene